have u ever lose your belonging?
wallet?your money?...
lose your heart to some one?....or maybe
u lose sometin that might be your?
or lose some one u love?....
hmm...me not really...but feeling kind of rite now..
dun noe why....maybe..nope!...
what do u feel when u lose somebody?...
is it hurt?....is it hurt enough to make u 'jeng' all the time..?..
i've been through this f-word feeling rite now...and jz wondering..how loser i am...siigh~..
its not supposed to be like this..
help me!...
F%^k!....terlalu byk dugaan untuk di hadapi wat mase sekarang..n dtng lg beberape masalah yang tidak berkait pun dengan CGPA aku...oh god!..help me, ur humble servant...what shud i do?show me the rite way...
xhabis2 masalah mendatang..orang kate masalah mematang kan kite...tetapi,bagaimanakah kirenye jika masalah itu tidak sempat mmbuatkan kite matang?....lose again..lose against everything u had..damn!..
assalamualaikum bg yang iye, salam sejahtera bg yang tidak....hajime mashte bg yang peranakan Jepun..anneyong-haseyo bg yang Korea, utara ataupun selatan...bgi yang AMAREKA, elo boh,wat nate apo tuh....walau ape pun anda...tetap lah menjdi anda di mane jua anda berada...jdilah dri sendri..jgn hipokrit...hipokrit tdak akan di terime pakai oleh msyarakat sekeliling anda, walaupun anda sememangnye hipokrit, jgn cube menonjolkannye pada public...kadang kala anda harus bersikap lebih 'plastik' di dalam masyarakat untuk menjage, mem'protect' status ataupun standard ataupun ape2 kepentingan di dlm sekolompok manusia yang bertamadun.....begitulah rutin harian insan biase..."nk terime atau tidak bolos saje dinding itu",itu kate zizan dlm rancangan nye...aku kate..aku xkan kate!..
entry kali ini adalah berkenaan dgn masalah yang di alami oleh remaje yang xde awek mcm aku..ha2..yang ade awek pun same dgn je pun..malah yang dah kawin pun same jugak..yang kawin dua, apatah lg...kaum hawa?dah same naik dah skng..artis?lebih teruk lg...jikalau tiada golongan ini, maka cikgu disiplin kat sekolah akan xde keje...atlis bleh men kejar2 ngan student....
tahun ini 2009!...sudah 7 tahun rupenyer...sudah 7 kali belanjawan, sudah 7 kali berpuasa di bulan ramadhan...af pun dah 7 kali kot...7 kali sambut krimas...7 kali chinese new year dan 7 tahun juge perjalanan aku mengejar sebuah cinta yang abadi tidak kesampaian..ha3..yg last tu tpu jeh!..=P..kerajaan menaikkan harge rokok setiap tahun rasenye..mereka beranggapan golongan perokok adalah golongan yang kaye.."mmpu beli satu semesta",itu kate Too Phat...dlm tempoh tujuh tahun dah byk kali cubaan satu, dua , tiga untuk mengurangkan jumlah pengambilan nikotin yang di ambil sehari-harian...tpi xberjaye...semakin parah...setakat menanam tebu di pinggir bibir je la...cube google cane nk stop smoking...bermacam2 care yang ade...satu pun xmnrrik bg aku..aku lebih tertarik untuk men google mende lain...contoh nye mencri edu jurnal dan etc..kenaikan harge rokok agak mmberi impak kepada perokok...tpi masih gak..wat derk je..kongo je..
7 tahun!!!!..kalo aku da kawin..aku rse anak aku yang paling sulong sudah berumur 5 tahun...haha...kalo anak aku lelaki,"abah, aiman nk basikal, nti abah belikan basikal ye,kawan aiman sume dah ade".....itulah di namekan imaginasi..ape barang basikal..."nah abah bg gitar fender nih, jdi cam Steve Vai, jdi cam dia, pro gitar solo"..aku sure dia xkisah..kalo yang perempuan,"mama, along nk beli barang make up,nk comey mcm mama..abah kate mama comey,sebab tu dia kawin nga mama"..ape barang beli make-up.."nah mama belikan along raket squash, jadi cam Datuk Nicol David,dia player squash top dunia...FYI,mama jual mhal dulu, abah ko tu yang tergile2 kan mama..padan muke die..tpi las2 mama sayang dia jgk..".....tpi apakan daye..7thun penuh dgn gelumangan nikotin dan tar shje...
aku rase sudah tibe masenye untuk sedikit serius untuk merealisasikan harapan aku ini...kepada kawan2 seangkatan dgn aku..jomla kite brhenti ramai2...kite boikot produk tembakau..biarlah lembage tembaku malaysia bankrap je trus..kepada yang sudah berjaye, berkongsilah tips dgn rakan anda...xpun tulis buku pasal pengalaman anda menjauhi produk tembakau ini..kalo laris dapat royalti, dapat duit..perghhh!...duit tu...
aku ade seornag kawan ataupun teman di cni yang berjaye mengatasi ketagihan itu..tahniah kepada yang terlibat...aku percaye 50 % dripada usahanye itu adlah keazaman dri sendri..yang selebihnye adalah dri keyakinan yang di berikan oleh orng yg rapat dgnnye...tahniah kepada orang2 yang terlibt..anda sume adalah hero...kredit kepada mereka....
persolannye di mnakah aku hendak mencri 50 lg tu?...
aku xksh...
wat ilek je...
ilek lg...
ilek2...
ilek punye ilek..
dah 7 tahun...sesalan mule terase..."sesalanku"..ezlyn slalu berkate begitu..
"SPERMA perokok x subur!!!!!"...tepat ke dahi nmpknye kate2 itu,"headshot!".....
mne aku nk cari baje?!!!...
walau ape pun....niat itu masih ade...kate orng,pasang niat itu sudah cukup baik...
dah dpt pahale..cume mnunggu perlaksanaan shje..doa2kan la wahai teman2ku...=D...
p/s : better late than never!!!!!!...chow...
she's wearing her favourite orange long sleeve t-shirt tonite.a gift from her ex, "i love you" he use to told her that...the i love u thing is so cheap when the relationship is about to start, of course...
and for 3 years, that 3 word adorne her every single day.
why would he lie, he love her so dearly... neither place nor time can ever change that.
she was wrong....'i love you very much dear!'...but still...poor her...
they are going out tonite, with her best friend and a short-term relationship friend.she let out a little gigles when thinking about tonite,
they have been known each other for almost several years now, but they rarely speak to each other, she wonder how his voice would sound like....
he look a decent person, based on her observation.A kind and soft-spoken person from what her friend had told her...(yeah!that guy really a descent person!!...i knew him oredy lol..=P)
she hardly say a word during dinner, too shy maybe.the first impression are crucial, she knows that.
and if he give her a chance, she would show him that she are perfect for him.
she had bottle her feelling too long.she had plan up sort of conversation with him but now... her mind are blank..speechless!everything she plan jz go away..no sign..oh no!..
out of the blue, her best friend pinch her and she scream 'ouch!'..ahhh..the atmosphere truoble her a bit...wake her up from dreaming in the middle of dinner!..Wat the heck..tgh dinner pun bleh tdo gak ke..
he look at her and she look back... their eyes met for the first time...
a sudenly blood rush to her head... her cheek blushing.she look down.her cheek are red spontanoesly...Adrenalin!........"hahahahaha...."..
her friend laugh... and she didnt think the situation are funny enough to make her to join the laughter, some said its best medicine...its hurt!..
she look back at him, he smile with such charming and kind eyes...she shocked+freeze..=P
'....am i falling in love again?the broken heart whispered....'..after everything that happen recent, she cant afford to have somebody in her heart anymore...the wound still mark...the sadness still surrounded her...her X still..arghh!!!...enough abt the word X..damn X..X only an algebraic term..she whispered...
'hee..'..a fake, sweet little smile, from her lip......and from her eyes that never lie,force to make her look happy!....
a smile that will end everything happen that nite...
a smile that she wouldnt forget for her entire life.
a smile of frustration and devastating....
a smile that deserve a second chance....
a smile that only concern about the X-word!!!!...
she admit it....=D...
p/s....ini hanyalah imaginasi penulis!!!!jgn cube jadikannye sebagai isu berbangkit dalam 'mesyuarat community'....ha3~...
..hanye untuk mengisi post kat dlm blog ni...setelah sekian lame mmbisu tanpa berite di sebabkan tenet xpat kat bilik aku..so agak susah untuk aku berblog untuk sementara waktu ini..cume ketike idea diseru ke dlm otak pemikiran aku...note pad mmenjadi pilihan utama..
cerite diatas adalah rekaan semata-mata..hasil kerjasame aku dan ridha...seorang kawan yang agak istimewa, berasal dari Sarawak!...istimewa nye mmber aku ini, terletak kepada dirinye sendiri.. ...persahabatan yang aku harapkan akan kekal abadi sehingga selama-lamenye, tajuk yang same untuk kawan2 ku yang lain, yang misteri ataupun tidak misteri, sumenye same....
....jz imagine ur life without friends...ko akan jadi cam apek kat umah aku dulu, nk g mndi pun kunci pintu bilik,pdahal xde orang yg mmpu hibernate dlm bilik dia selama 1 minit pun..cane tu?..xcaye kat housemate nye pasal?or xde kawan kat dlm apartment aku ni?..punye la aku ini seorang yang peramah..berkwnla dgn aku..aku xracist!..aku universal...aku global malah glokal...aku berkawan,walaupun xsekepale tungjang ideologi nye...aku xkisah..bahkan seluruh dunia tahu aiman juga mengambil pendirian yang same mcm aku..aiman yang meniru aku, cume dia yg lebih dulu muncul di media cetak mahupun elektronik...kredit juge berhak di berikan kepada aku..royalti patut di bahagi same rate...Equal!..itulah yang sebaik nye...aku yakin itu sume aiman wat derk je...haha..sori adik aiman!!!..=D..
tertanye-tanye bilakah tenet ni nk ok..hampeh btol la..rugi aku beli account rapidshare, kalo dah tenet xde!!..sigh~..
exam Design will pass with flying colour for sure!..huhu..
...swit dream last nite...hahaha..hope u all also does have one...same person i thought...i don think she really exist...yeah!..she exist...only my existence is quite a bit of question..is she knew im exist?..no? or yes?..
..she beauty from my deep2 eyes..lol..how can i say that..its too jiwang already as a post in this blog...well..."cut it out ja"..my friend said..ok2...
..an italian once said that "beauty being defined as a summation of the parts, working together in such a way, that nothing to be added, taken away or altered...your beatifull"..
..sound too technical...bcos i olready change the phrase 'a lot'..so its sound not too lemah gemalai la..thats it.......
..he wants to love but his heart turned cold from those old stories yet to be told and solve. he never told a soul about his past, maybe it should stay that way, the less the better. Too much cruelty, he buried everything deep inside knowing that no one could really understand what he has gone through. A real life of ‘frog-who-want-to-be-a-prince-charming’….
..Stories, whatever it’s about, bring a deep curiosity in our heart and we can’t stop reading until the entire puzzles are solved and the trivial question that seems so foolish is answered, and of course, when the sad prologue becomes the happiest ending. So let me warn u, there is no happy ending here. The only left is nothing to be left for someone like him..
..It all begun with a crack in his heart… by a soft smile from a woman across the hall. Gentle piano touch on ‘Beethoven’s Love Story’ filling the atmosphere, illuminating the heart of everyone in the party, his too.Then the smile grew wider, as the women come closer, he though he must be dreaming. Deep down his heart, he honestly confess that he had fall in love, but with who? The shinning Cinderella getting closer....
..A tear on his face… he doesn't realize the tears has run down, pity him. His thumb, smudge the first tear but her touch make the sadness even worse.
..A scar on his wrist…
..A moment in time that he can’t replace…
..A place to forget…Just another thing to regret…
..he gonna smile like nothing's wrong, talk like everything's perfect, act like it's just a dream, and pretend she's not hurting me….
...sambut salam kepada yang muslim, selamat sejahtera kpda yang bukan, konbanwa' kepada orang Jepun...yang telah tersedia maklum, aku berasal dri RedLand Kelantan, negeri yang aku banggakan kerana pasukan bola sepak nye sudah mmpu bersaing dlm liga super pada musim ini..yang baru2 ini mengalahkan pasukan bola sepak Pahang 5- 1 di gelanggang lawan..prestasi yang boleh di banggakan...
..post kali ini bukanlah untuk menyuburkan kembali semangat perkauman, TIDAK SAMA SEKALI..cume hari2 yang aku lalui 2 minggu kebelakangan ini terlalu tipikal untuk aku terime...terdengar suara2 sumbang melayu minimal mengata dari belakang,melayu yang merosakkan bangsa sendiri dan tanpa disedari mereka menunjukkan mereka itu harus di beri 'jari tengah'...bodoh!berani kate kat depan la..yang paling ati panas adalah mereka yang di maksudkan itu adalah warga hawa yang konon nye adab santun sudah menjadi rutin dlm kehidupan seharian..ceh!..
...kebenaran nye adalah...apabila aku berkomunikasi, bhase yang di gunakan mengikut kesesuaian...kalo dgn orang senegeri, loghat kami adalah medium nye..kalo dgn orang bkn senegeri, medium yang di gunakan mestilah sesuai agar komunikasi itu menjadi 2 hala..kalo satu hala orang xpggil komunikasi, orang panggil 'ko-sket-lg-dah-nk-mati' sebab ko ckp sorang2....nk dijadikan cerite:---ikuti perbualan tersebut...
aku : lambat siot ko datang, lelah aku tunggu sorang2..
kawan aku di sebelah kanan : ilek r bro, jap je pun aku lambat ni...bila nk start ni?
aku : jap a..tggu si 'x' jap..dia pun lambat gak kot..ade keje katenye tdi..
setelah 2, 3 minit...
aku : oloh nate ni..lambat ngat nok buleh ko nyapa cni..
kawan aku itu duduk di sebelah kiri : rilek boh..ado kijo meta satni..ho,derah la..ejah cepat sket..buleh kelik cepat..
kawan aku di sebelah kanan : ko mmg la slalu lambat nye..pape jeh la ko ni..aku gak yang kne ceramah sbelum ko dtng...damn!..
aku : jom2..kne wat cepat ni..
(suara2 sumbang dri arah belakang) : laaa..orng kelantan rupenye..igt oghe KL..(dgn nada xbrape sedap nk dgr....)..
..oleh kerana aku yang paling lantang bersembang tdi..oleh itu aku rse kenyataan yang agak xbrape manis itu di tujukan khas kepada aku' bkn name sebenar '...
SEDIH!!!..ade lg manusia sebegini rupe..igtkan dah pupus...
aku bkn tipikal kelantanese!..zaman nye telah lame berlalu..cume saki baki nye tetap ade..biasalh..air di cincang xkan putus!..btol ke tu peribahase aku?...
..bukan niat atau menghine saudara sendiri..tetapi untuk mengingati sesame sendri..
irama ketika ini...Azan maghrb berkumandang...gtg...=D...
p/s : entri kali ini agak serius..ini sume gara2 aku xcukup mase wat test QC tdi, emosi xstabil tpi mkn makin berselera nmpaknye...=)..
sudah lama agaknyer, since i updated this blog..about two week..bkn nye tdak bermnt lg meng updated blog aku ni..but thre a lot of thing happen and commitment this past two week..shgga aku kne mengenepikan dahulu untuk mnulis ataupun menaip secara teknikal nye....after CNY, ther two incoming exam total out is 30%...byk tu...hope both paper make me proud enough..hahaha...
i have sumtin to share with you all..
jeng3~...........
"mereka seorang engineer"
This is the final sem for those who in mechanical and manufacturing engineering sesi 04/05 in Unimas..This 4 years course almost about to end..only 3 month left...for those who not lucky enough will extend in order to grad with a better CGPA...hahah..me include!...LOL...for those who is able to grad on time..congratulation!...you r the best..=D....there is a fact!..out of 77, there is only 7 'flower' there..u know what the flower means?...ONLY 7 FEMALE STUDENT IN MY CLASS...sigh~...so little by little..so,the theory that stated, male student dah nk dekat pupus,tidak boleh di guna pakai dalam klas aku...maybe course yang lain bleh kot..aku tgk kawan drng pun sume pompuan..hahaha..lucky them..lucky ke?...nope!...they are not lucky enough to be lucky..apakah mksdnye tu...aku pn xsure..
all this sweet girl from east Malaysia i ges...from bintulu,from kuching,from sabah also..thre is one girl that had been mysterious for all of us since the very first year attend this class!...u know who?...damn,im not giving out the answer..think of urself..lol...this is:
lalaleladidiangelwawactdelia
nice to meet all of you here...you make our class shining brightly as the sunshine arise from the east every morning,every day for last 4 years!..hahaha..you all shud take that as a compliment...=D..
To lala - nice girl from bintulu...she in my memory in static class..hahaha..
To lela - from bintulu also, she nice..in 4 years im only talk to her several time..
To Didi - nya tok orng kuching,taman sukma kot.aku xsure gak...hepi go lucky i think..not available anymore..=D..
To angel - my friend said she look very beatiful at FK dinner 'once in the blue moon' at crown plaza hotel..i think so..hahah..
To ct - i never talk to her i think..maybe we shud have a little convrsation later or just say 'hi' once we meet each other somewhere...
To delia - sabahan..promp queen with nice royal yellow blouse at FK dinner at crown plaza..she also not available anymore guys!..=D
To wawa - iban girl...nice also...thank to her cause to put my link in her favourite section..kredit to her...
"they all future engineer"
hehehe...itulah a litle bit prescription about them...even my communication with my opposite gender are too bad..but still i want to get along with you all...=D...i have one more person to share with u all..but i think maybe next time...because she is too far away from here...i wish her alwiz in pink or yellow or white of health...
i got a bad fever today..sory Ir Dr Andrew, dont manage to go to your class today..also En aidil,sory for not be able to enter your dynamic class...time to take a meds...panadol all the way..damn!panadol suck...
back on track tomorrow..insyallah!..
